Dear Lindsay,
My name is Austin Marlia, I Love to play sports, be with family and friends, I love to make people laugh and make them feel better! My favorite color is Navy Blue even though I have plenty other favorites as well. I have two amazing parents who I’ve been blessed to have in my life. They have taught me to Love every single person I meet with all of my Heart. I was blessed with a pretty good childhood. I was God gifted in Sports which I also Love to play because it gets my mind off of things. I have a pretty colorful track record when it comes to dating, especially the number of girls I have dated but that’s what makes you so different from the others is your so down to earth, gentile, nice, and a little tomboyish which I love because we can play sports together and be competitive with one another. My high school life was Amazing! Full of great times with friends, along with front page sports articles and other things. I have always considered myself a pretty lucky guy but, my life changed, on a warm spring day at a regular track practice. I noticed a female specimen that was running like the wind and it caught my attention enough to find myself questioning “Who is that girl?” That’s when my life changed. I slowly began to pursue this quiet, conservative, cute, school girl who I didn’t even know. As I got to know this girl I noticed she had a problem with self-confidence, so I was going to do something about that. Sooner or later that was fixed and she beamed with confidence from head to toe. Over the course of the rest of the spring we had become good friends, hanging out, playing games, chasing each other, just having a great time like little kids would on a play ground. I was developing feelings for this girl. She then left me for a period of time to go visit family in Minnesota. I missed her so much but still, the chances of us being together weren’t that great because she just wanted to be friends and I respected that. When she came back home we continued to enjoy each other’s company and we began to grow into something special. Over the course of that next fall I had asked her father if she could go to homecoming with me and he said Yes! It was such a relief because I didn’t want to go with anyone else. On October 17th we had our first kiss. I will never forget that moment for the rest of my life. I was her first kiss. There is no greater feeling for a man than knowing that you have the opportunity to be someone’s first kiss. I made sure I cherished that moment. After that great moment things continued to blossom. Lots of school dances, movie nights, hanging out, and just getting to know each other better. Another special moment for me was going to see the Colbie Calliat Concert together. There were so many great songs that expressed my love for this girl. We had a great time! It then came around to Spring time again! Track season it was! What a great time with great friends! She had an awesome season and continued to shine and lead by example even if she was still shy. When the season was over she got the Eagle Award, along with myself which represents a person who is a leader and leads by example, who works hard, and is a good teammate. What a great award to share with someone that you love so much! Soon enough it was time to graduate! She graduated from Our Lady of Guadalupe Academy also with an appointment to the Air Force Academy Prep School! What a great accomplishment for her, she worked so hard for it. I was so proud for her, I really was. She was set to leave on July 13th for Colorado Springs to start basic training. I know that this girl was something special to me so I got her a promise ring. I promised to her that I would love her and support her and be strong for her while she was away. I didn’t fully accomplish that promise. I fell short, and I am truly sorry about that Lindsay. I know for a fact that I did love you and I did support you as much as I could along with trying to keep myself sane from going completely crazy. I hope you realize sometime that I really did try Lindsay. We did have our ups and downs over the course of the year but, It did make our love stronger for one another I believe! When it came around to Thanksgiving she surprised me from behind at my house and that is also a moment that I will never forget. I was smiling and hugging her and I never wanted to let go. She continued to come home on holiday breaks to be with her family, friends, and me. During this period of time, I found God. What an amazing thing that was for me in my life. He helped me through many tough times just like he is right now. I was saved and baptized all in a period of 7 months. Isn’t it crazy how fast God moves. Spring break came around and that was another good time spent together. She then left home once again back to her other home to finish school strong and decide what she wanted to do with her life. Over the course of these months we talked and I was stupid enough to bring up the topic some times when I shouldn’t have. I’m so sorry if you feel like I was pressuring you Lindsay I really am. I was just telling you what I thought would fit for you best which was wrong for me to do. I hope you can accept my apology. I just cared and loved you too much. I just want you to be happy Lindsay. I have a lot of work to do, but I’m willing to work on my faults so I can be the man that any woman would want in their life. Lindsay, I’m just a boy sitting in front of you telling you how I feel in a super cheesy way, but it’s truly how I feel about you. You have changed my life so dramatically that I can’t thank you enough. You challenge me to be a better man, friend, and boyfriend throughout this whole process. You have shaped me and I can’t thank you and My Father in Heaven enough for that. Lindsay, I want you to go to the Academy, even if you don’t believe me I know that I’m telling the truth because it’s a great opportunity that will make you into something bigger than yourself which is what you what and I am behind you on that. The Academy, the environment, and the people make you happy so why shouldn’t I support that! I want you to be happy Lindsay and if you know in your heart that this is the right place then I’m ready to go on this crazy adventure with you and experience what life has in store. I am committed to you and I know your committed to me Lindsay. A friend makes a commitment, and a loser makes a promise I don’t want to be that loser again, I want to be that friend and that rock for you. I’m ready to take this challenge head on! I can’t wait to see what challenges come our way because I know it will only make us stronger! But first, I want us to focus more on God because the only way were going to make it is if he’s with us. I want us to talk about him, read scripture or versus to each other to encourage one another through tough times. Lindsay, I will do my very best to support you and love you the best I can. Lindsay, I want to spend my everyday with you. I want to give you myself whole heartedly for the rest of my life. I want to marry you Lindsay but only time will tell. I know you’re going through the roughest time in your life right now and I want to be here for you. Please come to me whenever you need me Lindsay. I want to be your man, your rock, your comforter, your physiatrist. I want to be here for you and I hope you can regain that trust for me again. Lindsay, I am an open book. You can ask me anything and I will tell you what I think. I know your having to work for getting back into the Academy and I hope they will accept you again. I just hope you can enjoy this break you have with family, friends and me if you would like. I hope you can love me again Lindsay like you used too. We’ve had so many great moments together and I want to keep building off of those great experiences. I want to be your first and your last kiss Lindsay, I hope you are ready for this challenge that is in front of us, just know that I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART AND SOUL. I’m loyal, and committed to you and I hope you can accept my apology Lindsay. If not then I don’t know what else to do. As my coach would always say for football, “Leave your heart and your soul out there on that field, because if you don’t you will regret it for the rest of your life” I’m laying it all out there Lindsay with no regrets. I’m not scared; I’m excited for you and for me. Let’s fly away together like falcons and explore this world together. I Love You Lindsay Marie Marsh.
Love,
Austin Marlia
