Tangents of late nights

Today, April 2nd marks the first day and last day as a Junior ever! How do I feel...? Amazing! Today was a great and beautiful day, the Sun was out and the temperature was at a medium. What could have been better? I don't think a single thing would have been. Being a College student can be hard sometimes... days fly by and you feel like your stuck in a little bubble. Let me tell you, YOU ARE! I'm sad in a way that I don't have enough TIME to do such things that I would want to in a day like enjoy the Sun, read a well written book, or stare into the abiss and let my mind unwind and create things unimaginable. Those are the things I miss most. School can be a very controlling and time consuming job for most of us. Some of us it comes naturally, others not. Me... I have to work at it. Having been taught good values and hard work at a young age I'm a dedicated full time student who does his very best to learn and succeed, but it that enough? Is this all there is to life? College can be fun don't get me wrong, but for most days its a continuous grind. How do we all find that niche or that something that we know and love and can hold on too? These are things I ask myself sometimes... I love my major and I am learning a lot, but there are far more pieces to the puzzle than I could imagine. There is more to this life than we make it out to be. Love, Laugh, Dance, Sing, Smile, Trust, Connect, and Live! This life isn't so complicated if we make it simple. Do the little things and enjoy every moment like it is your last. I always seem to wonder that if I get a bad grade or don't do good on a test then it is the end of the world for me... NO! Things happen for a reason and God has his hand in your life to direct you where to go and to pick you up when you fall. Learn from your mistakes, Pray. Get back up and fight! It isn't the end of the world, it is just the beginning to something far greater and bigger than you could ever imagine yourself doing. We can ALL make it! Stand strong and live your life abundantly and fruitfully for your sake and for others and always give thanks to the One who created you.

Corvallis! Round 2

Man, I haven't been on here in forever! It's been a while, but I'm back in Corvallis! What have I done since I've arrived? Worked, worked, and let me guess more work!!!! It's been tiring and all, but the pay off is going to be good! :) I've realized being back in Corvallis that I'm much happier! I'm in my own place eating normal food, paying bills, doing dishes, and all the other fun stuff that comes along with that! I'm so excited to get school underway because I'm taking more classes that involve my major and I am excited to see how I do. I feel like I have a better grasp on the word "College" now, so I'm ready to take this bull by the horns and direct it where I want it to go! Well even though I might not keep up on this much, I'm gonna try my best! I hope you enjoy reading my posts and always....... SMILE!!!! :)

Fighting chance

Dear Lindsay,

          My name is Austin Marlia, I Love to play sports, be with family and friends, I love to make people laugh and make them feel better! My favorite color is Navy Blue even though I have plenty other favorites as well. I have two amazing parents who I’ve been blessed to have in my life. They have taught me to Love every single person I meet with all of my Heart. I was blessed with a pretty good childhood. I was God gifted in Sports which I also Love to play because it gets my mind off of things. I have a pretty colorful track record when it comes to dating, especially the number of girls I have dated but that’s what makes you so different from the others is your so down to earth, gentile, nice, and a little tomboyish which I love because we can play sports together and be competitive with one another. My high school life was Amazing! Full of great times with friends, along with front page sports articles and other things. I have always considered myself a pretty lucky guy but, my life changed, on a warm spring day at a regular track practice. I noticed a female specimen that was running like the wind and it caught my attention enough to find myself questioning “Who is that girl?” That’s when my life changed. I slowly began to pursue this quiet, conservative, cute, school girl who I didn’t even know. As I got to know this girl I noticed she had a problem with self-confidence, so I was going to do something about that.  Sooner or later that was fixed and she beamed with confidence from head to toe. Over the course of the rest of the spring we had become good friends, hanging out, playing games, chasing each other, just having a great time like little kids would on a play ground. I was developing feelings for this girl. She then left me for a period of time to go visit family in Minnesota. I missed her so much but still, the chances of us being together weren’t that great because she just wanted to be friends and I respected that. When she came back home we continued to enjoy each other’s company and we began to grow into something special. Over the course of that next fall I had asked her father if she could go to homecoming with me and he said Yes! It was such a relief because I didn’t want to go with anyone else. On October 17^th we had our first kiss. I will never forget that moment for the rest of my life. I was her first kiss. There is no greater feeling for a man than knowing that you have the opportunity to be someone’s first kiss. I made sure I cherished that moment. After that great moment things continued to blossom. Lots of school dances, movie nights, hanging out, and just getting to know each other better. Another special moment for me was going to see the Colbie Calliat Concert together. There were so many great songs that expressed my love for this girl. We had a great time! It then came around to Spring time again! Track season it was! What a great time with great friends! She had an awesome season and continued to shine and lead by example even if she was still shy. When the season was over she got the Eagle Award, along with myself which represents a person who is a leader and leads by example, who works hard, and is a good teammate. What a great award to share with someone that you love so much! Soon enough it was time to graduate! She graduated from Our Lady of Guadalupe Academy also with an appointment to the Air Force Academy Prep School! What a great accomplishment for her, she worked so hard for it. I was so proud for her, I really was. She was set to leave on July 13^th for Colorado Springs to start basic training. I know that this girl was something special to me so I got her a promise ring. I promised to her that I would love her and support her and be strong for her while she was away. I didn’t fully accomplish that promise. I fell short, and I am truly sorry about that Lindsay. I know for a fact that I did love you and I did support you as much as I could along with trying to keep myself sane from going completely crazy. I hope you realize sometime that I really did try Lindsay. We did have our ups and downs over the course of the year but, It did make our love stronger for one another I believe! When it came around to Thanksgiving she surprised me from behind at my house and that is also a moment that I will never forget. I was smiling and hugging her and I never wanted to let go. She continued to come home on holiday breaks to be with her family, friends, and me. During this period of time, I found God. What an amazing thing that was for me in my life. He helped me through many tough times just like he is right now. I was saved and baptized all in a period of 7 months. Isn’t it crazy how fast God moves. Spring break came around and that was another good time spent together. She then left home once again back to her other home to finish school strong and decide what she wanted to do with her life. Over the course of these months we talked and I was stupid enough to bring up the topic some times when I shouldn’t have. I’m so sorry if you feel like I was pressuring you Lindsay I really am. I was just telling you what I thought would fit for you best which was wrong for me to do. I hope you can accept my apology. I just cared and loved you too much. I just want you to be happy Lindsay. I have a lot of work to do, but I’m willing to work on my faults so I can be the man that any woman would want in their life. Lindsay, I’m just a boy sitting in front of you telling you how I feel in a super cheesy way, but it’s truly how I feel about you. You have changed my life so dramatically that I can’t thank you enough. You challenge me to be a better man, friend, and boyfriend throughout this whole process. You have shaped me and I can’t thank you and My Father in Heaven enough for that.  Lindsay, I want you to go to the Academy, even if you don’t believe me I know that I’m telling the truth because it’s a great opportunity that will make you into something bigger than yourself which is what you what and I am behind you on that. The Academy, the environment, and the people make you happy so why shouldn’t I support that! I want you to be happy Lindsay and if you know in your heart that this is the right place then I’m ready to go on this crazy adventure with you and experience what life has in store. I am committed to you and I know your committed to me Lindsay. A friend makes a commitment, and a loser makes a promise I don’t want to be that loser again, I want to be that friend and that rock for you. I’m ready to take this challenge head on! I can’t wait to see what challenges come our way because I know it will only make us stronger! But first, I want us to focus more on God because the only way were going to make it is if he’s with us. I want us to talk about him, read scripture or versus to each other to encourage one another through tough times. Lindsay, I will do my very best to support you and love you the best I can. Lindsay, I want to spend my everyday with you. I want to give you myself whole heartedly for the rest of my life. I want to marry you Lindsay but only time will tell. I know you’re going through the roughest time in your life right now and I want to be here for you. Please come to me whenever you need me Lindsay. I want to be your man, your rock, your comforter, your physiatrist. I want to be here for you and I hope you can regain that trust for me again. Lindsay, I am an open book. You can ask me anything and I will tell you what I think. I know your having to work for getting back into the Academy and I hope they will accept you again. I just hope you can enjoy this break you have with family, friends and me if you would like. I hope you can love me again Lindsay like you used too. We’ve had so many great moments together and I want to keep building off of those great experiences. I want to be your first and your last kiss Lindsay, I hope you are ready for this challenge that is in front of us, just know that  I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART AND SOUL. I’m loyal, and committed to you and I hope you can accept my apology Lindsay. If not then I don’t know what else to do. As my coach would always say for football, “Leave your heart and your soul out there on that field, because if you don’t you will regret it for the rest of your life” I’m laying it all out there Lindsay with no regrets. I’m not scared; I’m excited for you and for me. Let’s fly away together like falcons and explore this world together.  I Love You Lindsay Marie Marsh.

Love,

Austin Marlia

Life!!!!!

Man it's been a while since I've been on here.  Where to start... Well lets just say it's been a roller coaster the last couple of months.  A lot of ups and downs.  That's life right?  God has a plan for all of us and i'm confident that he has a great life for me.  It's up to me if I want to fight through the hard times.  The high points have been I got an 84% on my Biology Exam and an 80% on my Math Exam as well!  This time was the best in a while!  I was so happy, because I worked so hard for those grades!  The lows consisted of a crazy girl at my Girlfriends school trying to get involved in our personal life and shake up our relationship.  It really didn't work but I hate it when that happens, because you know that they didn't do that stuff but your mind plays games with you and it just sucks.  I've definitely gotten stronger and more mature throughout this whole last year.  I'm really glad I have because it's only preparing me for the future when I'm out in the world alone.  Well y'all that has been the last couple of months for me!  I still continue to worship my God and spread His love and Holiness over this valley and just continue to share His spirit with others!  He is truly AMAZING!!!!

What a Wonderful World and a Wonderful Girlfriend!

Have you ever felt the grace of God, or found that special someone that you know you want to spend the rest of your life with? Well, I have.  On November 9th, 2010 I was saved and blessed by our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!  I have never felt his presence or his love until this day of my life.  Its a feeling that I can't explain.  I was overwhelmed with joy and excitement knowing that my God is an Amazing God.  I want God to be Number 1 in my life.  I want to know everything about Him as he teaches me Love, Wisdom, Truth, and how to build a Foundation for marriage.  These characteristics are so important in my life as I grow up to soon raise a family and be a husband and father.  I want to be the best man that I can be to my wife and kids.  I want a marriage that is built on a SOLID Foundation that will not crumble.  I want to learn how to LOVE like God Loves us.  GOD IS LOVE.  I want to grow in WISDOM like our Father in Heaven has. I want to be TRUTHFUL because everyone deserves to know the truth.  I believe that if I can learn these characteristics through my Savior in Jesus Christ that I can be the man that anyone would want me to be in their lives.  Now, to the Second most important thing in my life.  My best friend and girl friend Lindsay.  I'm so thankful to God everyday that she is in my life.  She has shaped me in so many ways that I don't have any sharp ends.  I believe and know that I can't live life without here in it.  We are the best of friends and we always have the best time together.  Every time I see her face I fall in love with her again.  They always say "When you get that special feeling about someone and wanting to spend the rest of your life with them that it's true love." I believe that I have found that feeling for Lindsay and I never want to stop loving her.  She has been in my life for the past year and a half and during that time it has been the best time of my life.  We have gone Snowboarding, Ice Skating, Running (she would prefer to run by herself), hiking, everything imaginable we have done.  I cherish every moment when I'm with her because I don't know if it will be my last time.  That's why we need to live day by day and really just love people for who they are.  I think we get caught up in the little things like looks, or first impressions.  Last time I heard you can't judge a book by its cover.  Life can be so fragile and thats why I think both of us have such a PASSION for LIFE and for one another.  God has done some tremendous work in our relationship that I can't thank him enough for.  This girl is a special girl.  I truly believe that I have found my Life-long friend Jesus and I want to spend the rest of my life with this Amazing person that You have put in my life.  If I can grow in God and learn more about Him and trust in Him that there will be no worries or troubles in my life, that I can be the best man I can be for my family.  While doing this ALL THE GLORY WILL GO TO GOD!!!!

Perseverance

Have you ever had the feeling of just giving up?  I have.  This just occurred to me last night as I was studying for a Biology Midterm.  I've been really busy lately with school, homework, and studying that I just wanted to give up! But I can't.  All of us run into this problem during our lives.  We either choose to give up, or we choose to fight and keep working hard to reach that goal.  This work is a measure of dedication, enthusiasm, and heart.  We ALL have it in us.  As I woke up this morning I felt so much better about things.  I got some good studying done and I took some well-needed breaks.  Instead of just giving up right on the spot; think about it a little bit because the next day you could feel totally different about things.  Always strive for the best in your life and put a  SMILE on your face while doing it! :)

Hello World! :)

Hello everyone I'm officially a blogger.  I think this is going to be something fun! My purpose for having this blog is going to tell you about life struggles and how to overcome them.  I've been through plenty myself and it has made me a stronger person.  I feel like my purpose in life is to reach out to others and make them feel loved!  There is nothing better in the world to me than making someone laugh or smile!  I live for that!  Well I hope all of you enjoy my blog for years to come and I can't wait to see what the New Year has in store for me! 


Thank you!